Pain plus 362.

For the past three hundred and sixty-two days, I have been making strides with Kasia, who Jim and I refer to as the queen. She knows she has the rule of the house.

Yet my heart sinks daily as the memory of my Zushie is never far out of my mind. Three hundred and sixty-two sunrises and sunsets that I haven’t had her here with me. Fireworks throughout the year that I haven’t had to worry about calming her down.

I have some comfort that she is with my Mom, but it is still so hard.

I don’t even take Kasia down to the bay, as she doesn’t love it quite the way Zush did. I find it quite ironic that we moved down here because she could go and swim her hearts’ content in the bay, and now she is gone.

So please forgive me if I am not quite myself the next few days.

My heart hurts.


Red Shoes Dancing the Blues

When I woke up yesterday morning,I was shocked.

Granted, I pick up a People magazine once a week, or watch the E channel, but as they say, the family kept it quiet.

The death of David Bowie is a loss for the music world. It also hits a timeline in most of us 40 and overs lifetimes.Some of us never had a chance to see Bowie at the local theater when they came in town. Most of us knew of him through the radio, or MTV videos for those younger than us.Duets he did with Freddie Mercury and Queen,”Under Pressure” were one of my favorite performances.I love when he did Dancing in the Streets with Mick Jagger. Remembering the music brings me back to my youth, to a carefree time in life. I remember Space Oddity..I had never heard anything like that before.

R.I.P. Ziggy Stardust… You will be missed!

An Easier life..

One of the two hundred level stations on Comcast is airing a Queen concert from 1981 from Canada. A time where things weren’t so bad,…yet…It’s incredible how the music of our youth comes back to bite us in the butt when we least expect it. The new wild, hot songs we used to bop too now have a slightly faded edge to match the slightly fading vision in our eyes as we get older.The spring in my step that had me out at night clubbing to the music, and had me coming in the next morning humming the tune as I came into the office now only get a little chuckle and my step to the office is just as leaden as it has been for the past fifteen years.

Queen, I’ll grant you, is not everyone’s cup of tea, but you know what? The dreck from the office today is swept away and I can try to fall asleep and feel slightly more optimistic about tomorrow.