Dr.Zhivago

My mom always felt that Dr.Zhivago was her favorite movie. As I watch this now, as it is being shown on local Public Television, I can only wonder if she swept over the darker parts of the film and loved the romance.

For a film with rape, and the Russian revolution as a backdrop,crooked politicians, and the hardship of war, I guess it is rose colored glasses that let the prospect of love sneak through.

Of course, an all star cast of Sir Alec Guiness, Omar Shariff, Julie Christie, Rod Steiger, Geraldine Chaplin, just to name a few, definitely hold your interest. Oh wait, as a former history major, the historical background and the various relationships in the plot kept my interest.

It’s just hard putting my mind in my Mom’s place, and seeing only the romance. Funny what the passage of years does to your memory of a movie.

Anyhow Mom, this one is for you!💜I miss you!

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Dad

I can’t believe it’s been twenty years.

Twenty years ago, it started as an ordinary day. Yes, my Dad was on the cusp of entering hospice, but it was not meant to be. I called home mid-morning to check on how things were going, as I normally did.

I was told Dad was having a bad morning, so I left.

Dad left us two o’clock that afternoon.

I couldn’t believe the kindness of my co-workers. Some even came and called at the house to pay their respects.

Twenty years.

You have Mom and now my Zush up there with you. Make sure you give Zush love from her Momma, ok?

I miss you terribly Daddy, but will love you forever.

Pain plus 362.


For the past three hundred and sixty-two days, I have been making strides with Kasia, who Jim and I refer to as the queen. She knows she has the rule of the house.

Yet my heart sinks daily as the memory of my Zushie is never far out of my mind. Three hundred and sixty-two sunrises and sunsets that I haven’t had her here with me. Fireworks throughout the year that I haven’t had to worry about calming her down.

I have some comfort that she is with my Mom, but it is still so hard.

I don’t even take Kasia down to the bay, as she doesn’t love it quite the way Zush did. I find it quite ironic that we moved down here because she could go and swim her hearts’ content in the bay, and now she is gone.

So please forgive me if I am not quite myself the next few days.

My heart hurts.

Mom

It’s that time of year.

Every Easter, my Mom got white hyacinths from me. My brother Bob got her purple hyacinths, my brother Henry gave her daffodils and my Dad would buy her an Easter lily.

I cherish the memories.

As I go out with Kasia in the morning, I walk past the two big planters by my gate, and smile . Mom is here in my hyacinths, and things are good.

Simpler Days

It’s the Presidential Weekend holiday coming up this weekend here in America.

In the old days, about 50 years ago, there were two holidays: one in commemoration of Abraham Lincoln’s birthday, and one for George Washington’s Birthday. As the years went on, the government decided to consolidate the days into one federal holiday. Thus, the President’s day holiday came into being.

Part of me still thinks of a simpler time.

I remember shopping with my parents and stopping at F.W.Woolworth and in the store,they had a candy counter. Jars on top of the counters had jelly beans and the like in big glass jars. What we always got this time of the year?

These, technically, are now marketed as cherry lolly pops. When my Mom would buy them, they were Washington’s cherries. The real job was breaking the stems apart. The green stem was made of plastic. I remember having to twist them around and around until finally the stems would wear out and you would have two separate cherries on two stems.

As F.W.Woolworth’s store is out of business and has been for a while, you can imagine how shocked I was to actually find these candies still around. I have to remember- everything is on line.

Have a great weekend if you are here in the states. If you are reading this outside of America, well, have a good weekend, too!

Football

So here I on a Sunday, watching Football.

Hope against hope that New England loses- it is par for the course for me. After all, shouldn’t every team have a chance at the SuperBowl? Oh, I know, Tom Brady this, and Tom Brady that, but seriously? I just heard a quote from him saying,” I’m doing as best as I can, so why stop now.”

My Mom would say self praise stinks.

Me? I just believe in God working in mysterious ways.

GO EAGLES!!!!! 🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅

To Sleep, Perchance to Dream…

It was a rather stormy day here at Undisclosed location today, with occasional breaks of sun.

I took advantage of the weather to do something I haven’t done in a while.

I napped.

I really never was good taking a nap. I remember my Mom telling me, “You don’t have to sleep, just close your eyes and rest.” While she was saying that, I had my back lightly scratched by her.It was my childhood version of Aleve PM.

As I got older, I found I would nap hard; that is, I would wake up from an alleged nap feeling like I just had five hours of sleep. and had that early wake up headache as a result.

Now, staring down the barrels looking at 58, I do what my doctors used to tell me through my cancers. It is something I always preached but seldom practiced. Listen to your body. If it’s tired, rest it. You’ll feel better for it.

Better late than never.