In The Wee Small Hours

One of the songs from the Broadway hit “Hamilton” has a line about it being quiet uptown.

I think I am more down east here than uptown, but it is five in the morning and I am up.Outside of the tapping on the laptop keys, the silence is deafening.

Why am I up? It’s the ever popular end of medication that you are on and all of a sudden, it’s as if you are playing the should I try to go back to sleep game.I think staying up wins this round. Actually, it is kind of rare to be in a position to actually listen in the silence, and your mind and ears get a rest.

Pollen is out full force here and now both Jim and I are coughing in unison.I learned that it is always bad once I see the forsythia in bloom. The Christmas cactus in the window is blooming again, and is probably the only flower that isn’t bothering us.I guess that spring is officially here at Undisclosed location.

Kasia is sleeping one the floor behind me as I type this, as I know she is frustrated with the lack of activity here. We’ll try to get a good long walk in today before the weather tanks over Sunday and Monday.She has been a real trooper but I really don’t want her to fall out of the habit of walking with me.We both need the exercise.

Enjoy your weekend and hopefully the nice weather that goes with it.

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Tired…so tired

I am fed up.

I have been off anti-depressants for 3 months. It hasn’t been easy. Trying to be a cheering section for myself and my husband, well…there may be a lot of me, but trying to a cheerful rah-rah girl when it’s the last thing you feel like doing….**sigh**

I wanted to go back on anti-depressants, yet what I have been on, well, the insurance doesn’t want to pay for me to try something new. They want me to go back on something that didn’t work before. Yeah that’s good….spend a chunk of change on something that I know doesn’t work.

I’m tired of this system. I’m tired of fighting.

All of a sudden, alcohol looks really good.

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