Spinning Head

I had worked for 30 years at my primary position. It was my occupation for almost 1/2 of my life.

When we relocated and moved down the shore with the girls and Jim, I could have done nothing but volunteered for rescue, library, and the like, but ended up working. I started in the Acme in the Bakery department and later front end cashiering. The I spent a dark four months at the Ferry, which I would wish on no one.I gave myself a few months off, and ended up working as a substitute class aid for the school district.

I have gone through paperwork to send in to become a substitute teacher, but the last few nights I haven’t been feeling too well.Do I really want to work?

The issue right now is I am working five days a week, sometimes four. I really don’t WANT to go back to that. At the same time I am torn with the satisfaction I get helping the children. When you are married to a man almost on medicare, I realize that maybe I have to stop my head from spinning and stick with it.

But you know what?

I AM TIRED.

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thereisnosanityclause

58 year old married female, care-giving, coffee-drinking.dog loving former government employee who is writing to try to keep her sanity.

2 thoughts on “Spinning Head”

  1. I hear you LOUD and CLEAR!! I LOVE my business but I work it when I WANT to, not when a boss tells me I HAVE to. I definitely wouldn’t want a 8-5 job ANYWHERE, especially with Denny’s health and all the outside interests that I have. Maybe you could spend a little more time really examining your “why”. Maybe there’s a part-time position, one or two days per week, where you could help in classrooms, or a place around kids. Best wishes Marian – these decisions take time…

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