When I was younger, forty years ago when I graduated high school, I got my first good camera. I got a Pentax K-1000, which was a manual camera. I remember reading the actress Candice Bergen was annexing her career by having her pictures published. Back at that time, I thought that was pretty cool.
It became a hobby for me, although Jim used to tease me when we first got married about spending a lot of money at CVS getting photos developed. I didn’t really care, because, well, maybe it was the history student in me, but I liked documenting life.
For the past 16 years, I took a ton of pictures, which, to Jim’s liking, are saved on the computer and only occasionally printed out. I especially enjoyed taking pictures of Zosia with us and later Zush and Kasia with us.
While I was dusting today, I found two Shutterfly photo books I had made up with pictures of Zushie Girl and Kasia on our coffee table. It was the first time I found them since my Zush left me.
It was hard.
Once the tears subsided, I was genuinely glad I had taken pictures all along the way and am still taking pictures of Kasia. With Zosia, every time we went out for a walk, I documented it with a shot of her-some were similar in pose and background, and others weren’t. For me, it was the idea I knew I NEEDED a picture of her for rainy days. Those days are now.
Now, Kasia is my sole subject. I am sure there will be a time when I won’t mist up when looking at pictures of Zush. I am grateful I have them. Kasia will be the focus now. I look forward to many more pictures with her.
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