Not Into It

It has been a hard day today.

I think, like a lot of people who have had loss in their life, the closer you get to Christmas the harder it is to deal with.People who still have all their family haven’t a clue as to what the loss does to you at this time of the year.Things happened today that just seemed to put me over the edge, and I can honestly say I have not cried this much and felt this low in a long time.It’s hard, because I used to love this week and now, I can’t believe that I have turned into one of those people who can’t wait for February, so December would be over.

It is sad, and when I think of my “past” life”, I think this is what makes me tear up the most.I guess I need to put the sadness of the past in its place, and the fear of the future in it’s place.I just have got to live in this moment.
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Working to the End

Jim is getting ready to work two , or a possible three days this week. In the meanwhile, I am gearing up for my sole day of work this term, which is this coming Friday. After all, I figured I’d try the ankle out, and if there was residual pain,well, I’d have Christmas break to lay low.


We are going to my BFF’s Juls and Tim for New Years’eve and First night. I am hoping the girls will be ok and we’ll have peace among pup kind.

Enjoy the rest of the holiday preparations and make sure you remember the reason for the season!